Long December

I don't ever really want to put negative posts on here, but right now I am feeling very negative. I'll try to be positive while writing negative things.

There's a lot of things going on that are testing my nerves and my morale.

We are leaving this month for Afghanistan. We don't know what day. How can we possibly not? I don't know what to tell friends or family. Maybe that's the idea.

Yesterday we found out it might be Christmas.

I was granted a 4 day pass for all the work I did with modifying the aircraft. The aircraft are leaving to go to Jacksonville on Friday. There, they will be disassembled (to a certain extent) and loaded onto ships bound for the middle east. Twenty-four on the way to war.

Today I found out everyone who does not have a military driver's license will have to take a drivers' course next week. This, of course, applies to me, and interferes with that four day pass I mentioned. Therefore, the pass is cancelled so that I can get a military driver's license. I was going to go to Ohio one last time to see my girlfriend (whom I want to make my fiance) and my family, who is having a beautiful little Christmas party. Everyone is excited.

Tonight I have to call them and let them know that someone waited until the last minute to have a driver's course. I have to get a military driver's license. I've been here all !@#$%ing year.

I went to the inspector general to file a formal complaint because I am tired of not getting certain monies that I should be entitled to on my paycheck.

This afternoon I called the transportation division to see when a moving company would be coming to move my furniture out of the apartment so that I can terminate my lease. They have no file of me on record, and therefore no date to move my goods.

Why did I go to a mandatory transportation division meeting back in October to set all of this up?

Why do I put myself through all of this?

Sometimes I don't know, and I want to quit.

I see my family and friends living their lives in Ohio, safely and happily. I want that back.
But then again it all comes back to me. They can do what they do because of where they live. Whether people realize or care or not, it is because of soldiers.

And that is why I press on. Someday I will earn my spot back in society. I guess all the bullshit makes that day so much sweeter.

And so the saga continues.

PS. The Buckeyes are making an appearance in the national championship. Also, excuse my language. I think it gets my point across.